If you see this … start curing yourself now
Shaikh Ibn Uthaimeen, may Allaah have mercy on him, said,
“If you see that you have turned away from something from Allaah’s Religion or you see that you have turned away from the Book of Allaah, the Mighty and Majestic, either from reciting its [actual] words, or reciting it [by pondering over] its meaning, or reciting it by acting on it, then it is obligatory on you to cure yourself–and know that the cause of that turning away is sins.”
Tafsir Surah al-Maa’idah, vol. 1, p. 483.